By Design
“Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life…and which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?” - Luke 12:22, 25
“But seek first the Kingdom of God, and all these things shall be added unto you” - Luke 12:31
It’s hard not to worry. The mechanic didn’t call like he said he would, so I still do not yet know how much the car repairs will cost, but I don’t have a good feeling about the whole thing.
It’s hard not to worry about where the money will come from, or if any of this was my fault. Even though I serviced the car regularly and ran whatever checks I could periodically, some part of me still blames myself for the whole incident of the engine overheating. Maybe if I’d done this, or that. But there are only so many ways to drive a car from Tucson to Florence, and none of the variations (using my left foot to step on the accelerator, for example) would have made a difference.
Faith just told me that the youths back in Singapore just had a Bible lesson on worrying a few hours ago (it’s Sunday afternoon there already). She reminded me that nothing happens outside of God’s plan, and that He sees all things, knows all things, and has control over all things.
I take a deep breath, and I realise how fast I had forgotten these seemingly simple truths. As life grew more complicated I had subconsciously wrestled the steering wheel from God, and decided that I was more dependable.
So it’s a wake-up call; that’s what it is, this business with the car malfunction. I bow the head of my heart, and come unto Him once again, offering the reins of my life.
Lord, You know all things, and You know how I’ve run away from you; how I’ve forgotten You. Yet in through all my rebellion You still call me back unto Yourself, and I stand speechless at the grace that You’re showing me. I’m afraid to take the first step - I’ve fallen so many times over the years, and I know how fickle my heart is.
But I’m drawn back to You, because there is no other way. I can only ask for Your forgiveness and Your strength, that I may not sin against You.
Help me. To remember You always. To choose You always. Above all things.
“And we know that all things work for good to those that love God, to those that are called according to His purpose.” - Romans 8:28
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My Bible was opened to Philippians, so I will add this quote:
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God."
(Phil 4:6)
God gives us wake-up calls every now and then to remind us we're not infallible. But as you said, as long as we repent and put our trust in Him, we should not have cause for worry.
Which is why, when I meet my boss tomorrow morning, I will not be afraid - whether or not I get a pay cut, a retrenchment or have my pet project transferred to someone else - all of which are very good possibilities.
hey lucian, long time no talk. how have you been? i just want to say thanks for your prayer. it helped me say a prayer to God to and allay my worries. Thank you for being such a good brother-in-Christ, in a latent or less latent manner, always. ;)
God bless.
thanks for the encouragement you two.
Lainey: Yeah it's been a long time. A little less than a year since I've been home. I hope everything's going great with you...and you didn't tell me about your new site!
Agree! I could never get through my days without the LORD. He always watches out for me, and that helps me with my fears, struggles, uncertainties, etc. Every morning I wake up and read the Bible. The mornings I don't I feel a lacking inside me, that is always filled once I read His Word. Talk about power!
I am glad to see that there are people out there talking about this. He will always be there holding us up, walking with us, and just there when we need someone to talk to. He will always listen, comfort, and aid us.
One of my favorite verses that helps me every day is 1st Corinthians 10:13 -
No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.
God Bless!
hello lucian.
God does have a time for everything. He sees much more then we can.
:)
Its so wonderful.. He's the only one around who has such a big heart that He calls us His and lets us call Him.. DADDY.