Cynicism Cylically
Don’t know if I’ll ever learn to totally trust anyone. I’m not the paranoid sort who has been “burntbadly once before and will never trust again” kind. It’s just that all my life I’ve lived using a heightened sense of intuition. I easily discern a look in someone’s eye or their body language, or hidden motivations in a given situation. It is a safeguard that I find hard to let go of.
Having Faith by my side all these years has prevented me from going all bitter about people around me. Far too often I’ve noticed human motivations to be rather sinister and perverse, and it is truly by the grace of God that Faith’s presence in my life has taught me to trust a little more and believe in the “inherent good” found in people. I haven’t learnt to trust anyone more than I trust myself, and I don’t trust myself a great deal. What I’ve compromised to is believing that people - well, most at least - are probably as confused and helpless to their own instinctive motivations as I am. So, however sinister and perverse their intentions may be seen to be, I discount that their premeditation part was not indecisive and muddled, a result of being in the moment.
There are times when I’ve been proven wrong, and my new-found faith in people is shaken. Guys who intentionally cheat on their girlfriends. That’s a glowing example. I’m fine if both parties were totally lost in their love and one party made a mistake. But the fact remains that there are people out there wicked enough to lead the other on all the way.
God hates the wicked. God loves everyone. Everyone is wicked. I know you’re going to tell me how God hates the sin but not the sinner. Separating the two is such a paper-thin procedure.
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though man fail us.. God doesn't fail us. we may lose faith in the people around us, but don't lose faith in God. ^_^
there's is always something good to be seen in everyone, isn't it. to think, do people look at us with cynism and scrutiny?
"do not judge, or u too will be judged. for the same way u judge others, u will be judged, and with the measure u use, it will be measured to u."
....." why do u look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?"
matt7:1-3
Don't be angry or cynical, my dear brother....
I know sometimes people can seem so bad... but God tells us to love our neighbour - so we must. We must forgive and forget too. I learnt that forgiveness is not about making excuses for them - that they had a bad day or something, but to forgive them even though they intentionally hurt us or hurt people we love, and will probably do it again. It is not easy to do, but we must.
Thanks Tricia and Stormie. Your words have been a timely reminder.