Home Alone But Not Alone

It's almost funny. Last night I was in bed and thinking it felt weird not having Kieron on the other side of the room, tossing and turning. He provided the comfort of another being in the same living space, and it was a comfort indeed. I just received a call a few moments ago from Tamara, the Resident Hall Director, who told me that she had to put up an unexpected student from Japan. So now I have a Japanese roommate. It's apparently a temporary fixture, but I'm pretty sure it's going to be a permanent one. Oh no, I'm not complaining. I came to USA for an international experience, I just had no idea it would be this intense an experience. My new roommate (who's bags are here but I have not met) is a student here to learn English as a foreign language. There might be a little problem communicating, but it's nice to have someone.
I'm currently listening to "When she loved me", a song from the movie Toy Story 2. It was sung by a doll who was reminiscing the old days when her owner loved her. In that way I feel kinda like that. I was thinking about the times Kieron and I had, which though brief, was a wondrous time. I guess God knows the person I am, and provided. I know He does love me. I just wish I loved Him half as much as I want to.
I spent last night watching DVDs with Debbie, who came to Arizona from Indiana. We had a long chat after the movie, and it was great having someone to talk to on Friday night. It's usually the night when most people go partying, and less social people like Debbie and I stay cooped up in our little dorm cells. It was nice to hear from a fellow non-partier, sharing life experiences gathered from different parts of the world. Despite the vast cultural and geographical differences, all of us are so much the same. Our hearts hurt the same way, we seek the same things. There must have been a God that created us, don't you think?
Lord Jesus, there's a hole in my heart that can never be filled. It seems so empty so much of the time, and I know it happens when I look away from You. I'm certain that You and only You can fill that void of my life. Forgive me for the many times I placed my eyes upon myself. Please shield me and protect me from the winds and the waves that buffet me, and take me in Your arms…and there teach me to be strong. That I may soar on the wings of an eagle, there shall I run and not be weary, walk and not faint.
<center><u>Make My Life A Prayer To You</u>
Make my life a prayer to You
I want to do what You want me to
No empty words and no white lies,
no token prayers, no compromise.
I want to shine the Light You gave
through Your Son You sent to save us
from ourselves and our despair
it comforts me to know You're really there.
And I want to thank You now
for being patient with me
Oh, it's so hard to see
when my eyes are on me.
I guess I have to trust and just believe what You say
oh, You're coming again.
Coming to take me away.
I want to die and let You give
Your life to me so I might live
and share the Hope You gave to me
the Love that set me free.
I wanna tell the world out there
You're not some fable, a fairy-tale
that I made up inside my head
You're God – the Son
You've risen from the dead!
I want to die and let You give
Your life to me so I might live
and share the Hope You gave to me
I wanna share the Love that set me free.
Keith Green

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