Last night I told Faith that I'd come home as soon as school was out for the year. It was not something that came about easily, for it marks the end of one phase in my life, and the beginning of another.
Even as I take one step forward and look reflectively over my time here at Arizona, there are so many what-ifs, and the forks along that road I have long since passed come back to me. Yet it is not the path less taken that I muse over – it is the one much travelled. In Singapore where government campaigns are conducted to urge people to marry, getting married right after school is an anomaly. The life ahead with Faith is something that I've been looking forward to for the better part of my life now, and its realisation is both exciting and comforting at the same time. But like the malcontent most Singaporeans are, I often look at other people's lives and (consciously or subconsciously) make a comparison.
Looking at Faith (of <a href="">faithspace</a>, not my fianc&eacute;) and <a href="">her plans for summer</a>, I cannot help but turn a little green with envy. The list of parks she plans to visit over the summer were on my mind as a short vacation, a kind of reward upon graduation. I told Faith that I'd come home and help out with the things that needed to be done, and that visiting these places could be done at a later time, but I know how life is. Things just pile one on top of another and dreams become a distant memory. It is ironic that my greatest motivation for wanting to visit those parks is to take photographs and making visual memories of them.
I don't know what to choose, or how to.

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